S.O.S

Told you I made dinner plans
For you and me and no one else
That don't include your crazy friends
Well I'm done
With awkward situation's empty conversations

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half

It's like I'm walking on broken glass,
Better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get

So this is where the story ends
A conversation on IM
Well I'm done
With texting,
Sorry for the miscommunication

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half

It's like I'm walking on broken glass,
better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get
Next time I see you
I'm giving you a high five
'cause hugs are over rated, just FYI

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
Now my heart's in two

(yeah)

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
Now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half

It's like I'm walking on broken glass,
Better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get

Chiisana Koi No Uta..

In this wide universe, there is
A big world in a blue earth
A small memory of love will reach
You who are living in a small island

Time has passed since I met you
The letter with my piled up feelings increases
Without us realizing, it is already echoing between us
Sometimes we’re full of intensity,
sometimes we’re full of sadness

These feelings echoes distantly
This gentle love song will change the world

Look, the person who is important to you
Is right beside you
I just want you to receive
This echoing love song
Listen, listen, listen to this echoing love song

You’ve realized even when we walked
In the dark, the moonlight will shine on us
I won’t let go of you hand
I swear that these strong feelings will last for eternity

In the depths of forever, I’ll definitely say
These same words without any change of feelings
Even if it’s still not enough, it’ll change into tears
And it’ll change into joy that I can’t put into words
I’ll just hold you, I’ll just hold you

Look, the person who is important to you
Is right beside you
I just want you to receive
This echoing love song
Listen, listen, listen to this echoing love song

If it’s a dream don’t wake up, if it’s a dream don’t wake up
The time I’ve spent with you will become an everlasting star

Look, the person who is important to you
Is right beside you
I just want you to receive
This echoing love song

Look, the person who is important to you
Is right beside you
I just want you to receive
This echoing love song
Listen, listen, listen to this echoing love song

Patience?

Over the last few years, ever since my breakdown, I've learnt that going along with your emotions will bring you nowhere..

There's no point in being angry..

There's no point at all to complain..

There's no point at all to be depressed..

Life will sometimes drag you down, so you need to depend on yourself to pull you back up..

Most of the time, people will say what you wanna hear.. They lie.. But not in a bad way.. Just to lift your spirits again..

Upon walking on a path, we sometimes need to turn and take a glimpse of what we've gone through.. Just for a moment of course, and then, continue walking along the path..

Hurting yourself physically is a very good way to stop feeling hurt emotionally..

A few questions that I always ask myself.. What should I do now? By doing so, will I get the results I wanted? Can they be trusted? Why are they here? For what purpose? If things happened for a reason, what would be the reason for this?

Perhaps my bigger problem is I think too much.. And I have a few cases of... "ignorance" and "forgetting".. Maybe it's due to my persistence.. The inability to give up at such an early stage.. Even though I'm trying to forget, I'm remembering more and more.... All the laughs, joy, tears, sorrows, moments, memories that we share....

The Calling

Can you hear this voice?
I've been calling that, always,
From deep within my heart

Would you, all alone, let another lonely one be next to you
Because together it's not lonely, it's twoly
See, you're not alone any longer

Just because there's no one next to me
Doesn't mean that I'm lonely
For someone to notice this pain
That heart must have surely cried

Right now, we'll crush to bits
The fortress of our limitless sadness
I'll take you with me

Got it? I'm running through at full power
To where you're waiting, left behind,
In the place of tears
I believe in you, with burning passion
So, come to me!

Future..

There are no boring days
The future looks so exciting
Every day is full or surprises
The hurdles are so high
You can't get over them with half-assed feelings

When you find out what's happening
When you take the effort to answer
It can't be hard...
The bad times aren't useless

Eternity lasts forever
With this fleeting feelings
And the sky splits apart your illusion
Believe without looking away
And let's go laughing all the way..

Hidamari (Sunny Place)

Kimi ga kureta kotobatachi wa
Suteki da kedo nazo mo ooi kara
Itsumo hitorikiri no toki
Sono imi ni kizuku

Ato ni natte yasashisa o shiru
Arigatou o ii ni oikakeru
Nanoni kimi wa sono saki o susundeite
Oitsukenai mama de

Hikari ga sasu akarui hi no hou e hashirou
Kitto soko de kimi ga mieru ne
Yami no naka o susumu hazu ga nai

Taiyou no kakudo de kage ni naru yokogao o
Mamorinukeru kurai takaku tsuyoku terashitai yo
Shinayaka na hidamari no you ni

Kimi ga warai furimuita toki
Kuraku natta soba no hoo ni wa
Umaku keshita tsumori demo
Namida no sen oritatamareteita

Damatta mama mune no hako no naka ni shimaou
Sotto shiteteagetai koto nara
Tatta hitotsu dekiru sakimawari

Hikari to kagetachi ga chirachira suru komorebi
Tsutsundeshimaitai tanoshii kanashii dono omoi mo
Atataka na hidamari no you ni

Egao no o o hiite kimi wa mata sono saki e
Tsutsundeshimaitai ureshii kuyashii kono omoi mo

Taiyou no kakudo de kage ni naru yokogao o
Mamorinukeru kurai takaku tsuyoku terashitai yo
Shinayaka na hidamari no you ni

Hanarete mo yorisoeru kokoro

The words you gave me
They were wonderful, but cryptic all the same
It’s always when I’m all alone
That the meaning sinks in

Only later on do I realize your kindness
I run after you to say thank you
But you've already proceeded ahead
Before I could catch up with you

I’ll run to a bright and shining day
I know I’ll see you there
You couldn't possibly tread into the darkness

The angle of the sun causes shadows to cast upon your profile
I want to shine high and bright, just enough to protect it
Like a nice and sunny place

When you smiled and turned your face away
Despite your best efforts to hold they back
Tears trickled down
The darkened side of your cheek

I’ll silently tuck it away into a box in my heart
If I wish to leave you be
Then all that can be done is to beat you to it

Shadows and light flicker under the eaves of the trees
I want to embrace all the running emotions, the joy and the sorrow
Like a warm and sunny place

Leaving a trail of smiles behind you, you continue onwards
I want to embrace this feeling of being torn between happiness and regret

The angle of the sun causes shadows to cast upon your profile
I want to shine high and bright, just enough to protect it
Like a nice and sunny place

Though separated, my heart lies close to yours

Omamori Himari - Hidamari

きみが くれた 言葉たちは
すてき だけど 謎も 多いから
いつも ひとりきりのとき
その意味に 気づく

あとに なって やさしさを知る
ありがとうを 言いに 追いかける
なのに きみは その先を 進んでいて
追いつけないままで

光が射す 明るい日のほうへ 走ろう
きっと そこできみが みえるね
闇のなかを 進むはずがない

太陽の角度で 陰になる横顔を
まもりぬけるくらい 高く 強く 照らしたいよ
しなやかな ひだまりのように

きみが わらい ふりむいたとき
くらくなったがわの 頬には
うまく 消した つもりでも
涙の線 折りたたまれていた

だまったまま 胸の箱のなかに しまおう
そっと しててあげたい ことなら
たった1つ できる 先まわり

光と影たちが ちらちらする 木もれ陽
つつんでしまいたい 楽しいかなしい どの想いも
暖かな ひだまりのように

笑顔の尾をひいて きみはまた その先へ
つつんでしまいたい 嬉しいくやしい この想いも

太陽の角度で 陰になる横顔を
まもりぬけるくらい 高く 強く 照らしたいよ
しなやかな ひだまりのように

離れても よりそえる こころ

Thoughts About Love...

Love is a cycle..

When you love, you get hurt, you hate..

When you hate, you try to forget..

When you try to forget, you start missing..

And when you start missing, eventually you'll fall in love again...

Himitsu (Secret)

You see...
It seems I've been wounded, yet the words I truly desired..
To make me fulfilled, were living in the depths of my heart..
I'm troubled..

I have only a bit more than my body's warmth as my pulse quickens in the lukewarm wind..
Speaking of a distant future, I've seen that face before..
Together we can travel to the interior of my dreams..
It's like... this is each our body..

The pistol known as love is shooting mid-way to my heart..
Tactics like this, I can't grasp the meaning of such knowledge..
The trigger known as love is drawn, shooting at my icy heart..
Filling me with your love all the way to my fingertips..

You see...
It seems I'm always forgotten, like a meaningless silver coin one receives..
But a dully lighted gem can progress to shining, with drops of tears..
Just knowing me, that was a secret..

I've lost everything, and hunched over with a sigh, I've thawed in the dawn..
It's of no use to be on this path..
Yet in my hand is a shiny quarter dollar..
My feelings have been freed, as I grasp tightly to my courage..
I smile at the canopy that has been opened in my trembling heart..

My audacious lips are now held shut.....

I give to you only warmth, shooting mid-way from my heart..
Tactics like this, I can't grasp the meaning of such knowledge..
The trigger known as love is drawn, shooting out tainted blossoms..
And once more I will break down and give you a much-prized kiss..

Love

I think the video says it all :)

Quote

“If you ask what is the single most important key to longevity, I would have to say it is avoiding worry, stress and tension. And if you didn't ask me, I'd still have to say it.”- George F. Burns

It's true.. I'd still say it eventually even if I didn't say it before..

“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”

Just One Last Dance...

Can I have..just one last dance?

Just one last dance.... Oh baby... Just one last dance

We meet in the night in the Spanish cafe
I look in your eyes just don't know what to say
It feels like I'm drowning in salty water
A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise
Tomorrow will come an it's time to realize
Our love has finished forever

How I wish to come with you (wish to come with you)
How I wish we make it through

Chorus:
Just one last dance
Before we say goodbye
When we sway and turn round and round and round
It's like the first time
Just one more chance
Hold me tight and keep me warm
Cause the night is getting cold
And I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

The wine and the lights and the Spanish guitar
I'll never forget how romantic they are
But I know, tomorrow I'll lose the one I love

There's no way to come with you
It's the only thing to do

Just one last dance, just one more chance, just one last dance

Something Interesting..

Hatred.. not harted.. It sums up as the Law Of Attraction.. Whatever you give out, you get back..








If you feel sad, or lonely, or even there's something bothering you.. I'll be willing to listen as long as you're willing to tell..


Love is about giving without expecting anything in return..

Just For You..

They always question why I'm in love with you..
They said, I can get someone better than you..

And every single time, I just smiled.. =)

Maybe you're not as pretty as other girls..


Sometimes you're harsh..

Sometimes your temper comes with no warning..


Sometimes I got a headache trying to tend to your attitude..


But nonetheless,


Even though you're not the prettiest, you never question my looks.. You said I'm the most charming guy in the world..


No matter how harsh you are, you still cry when watching Korean movies..


Yes sometimes your temper is unpredictable, but your cuddliness are still there


Even though you're stubborn at times, your love, only I can feel them..



For what reason do we tell the happiness we share?
Let them say what they want.. Ignore them..
I know the one I love better.. =)

Tangga - Terbaik Untukmu

All the MVs on youtube regarding this song have been taken down due to some copyright claims.. So if you wanna listen to this song, search for it in 4shared.. And here's a translated version of the lyrics..

I've realized by now..
We are getting further apart..
I managed to think about it..
You're the one who wanted it..
Away from my hugs..

Oh Now I've realized..
This is my fault..
I don't want to be late and regret this..

Forgive me when I always..
Make you annoyed and hate me..
I did all those things..
Just to make you happy..

Maybe I didn't quite understand..
How to show what I meant..
I was just trying to be.. The best for you...

I want you always be here with me..
Don't go..
Give me a chance..
For me to prove..
Determination of my love..

To you.. The one I'm missing so much...

A new chapter..

Hmm.. When I realize it.. I've been changing phones quite a lot over the last few years.. But most of the time, it's due to a "burial of memories"..

From Sony K770i

To a black Sony C510




To a Sony C702




To a white Sony C510.. (As of this moment, I started using 2 phones which is C702 and C510)





And now changed my Sony C702 into a Sony W995.. (Yes I've lost this phone once and I bought another one just like it...)

Should I or should I not?.. My C510.. has approximately 2000+ messages from her.. The memories we share.. I've always wanted to share everything, yes EVERYTHING, that happened to me with her.. Amongst all of my friends, even the ones who knew me for a loooonnggg time, she is the only one who knew about my deepest, darkest secret.. The changing point that occurred in my life.. And yes, I really miss texting her, annoys her, and most of importantly, I miss making her smile..

I really really wanted to make things right again between us.. But I can only do that if she wanted me to.. Until that time comes.................

To you.. Yes.. YOU..

Slumbering in my heart..
A tiny, tiny wound go unnoticed..
Flooding from the gap..
Your name, strong and gentle eyes, fingers, and hair made me come to realize..
That I could meet you..
Talk to you..
Started wishing I could touch you, before I realized it..
Emotions aroused, they can't be stopped..
So even if I trip, my heart will run like the wind..
I fell in love with your profile..
And I'd feel so broken-hearted...
I really really love you..

August.. 2010..

0810 has arrived.. For some reason, it's been the same for three years in a row.. Will the situation continue until November? I'm.. not sure.. But all I can do is smile and walk forward.. Even though she's not around anymore...

If you really love someone, I believe that there is nothing in the world that you cannot overcome.. But first, you need to fully understand him/her..

Maybe it's just me who feels this way.. But.. If you're sick, I want to look after you.. If you're feeling down, I want to be the person that lifts you back up again.. More than that.. I want to be the person who always make you smile.. I want to be the guy you grow old with.. I may be mean at certain time.. But my feelings are real..

If you're reading this.. I hope.. you would give me another chance to make things better again.. I really do miss you..

Love and Books..

Love is like reading a book

Being in love is like reading a book.. Once you have made up your mind to start reading a book, you are deem to expect its conclusion.. You know for sure there is generally 2 possible conclusions.. Either it's a "Happily Ever After" and you feel worth reading it...or its a 'tragic disaster' that cause a lot of dissatisfaction.. Then you will begin to struggle through all the 'unanswerable' questions as to why, how, when, who, what and where?

You feel extremely disappointed and upset cause that's what you least expect.. You feel you've given in too much time (& hope) just to reach to the conclusion of the story, but it turns out of expectation.. By this time, these questions might wander in your mind..."Why is this happening to me? Why me?" But have you ever thought of this 'why', did you really get the answer to your question? Let me tell you.. Your questions were due to your 1st move.. which is.. decided to read that particular book.. That's why you shouldn't regret no matter what happen cause it was your decision..

A novel is like a living thing that has its life destined.. An author decides on the storyline of a book/novel.. As you flip to the 1st page, sooner or later you will reach the last page and the ending will be revealed.. Unless you quit reading when is half way through but you will never know the ending and if you wait for others to tell you, it will be too late and totally meaningless to you already.. As for love, once you decided to be with someone, you're bound to expect an ending, either a happy ending or a disaster that follow up by phobia, hatred, anger disappointment.. No matter what there shouldn't be any regret. Its all fated..

When you love someone, if he or she is happy, you will also be happy...
I really wonder...How many ppl actually can do that... Love is selfish... No matter how, there is definitely someone who is hurt... No matter how we avoid it.... Is there love that doesn't hurt anyone?? "If Love doesn't hurt, than it is not Love anymore.." Is this true???....

Just... A few words of wisdom... Diary of An Insomniac page 210

Today will NEVER come again.. Be a blessing.. Be a friend.. Encourage someone.. Take time to care.. Let your words heal, and not wound.. Coz today will never come again..

Live... Love... Laugh.. Do each everyday.. Smile and hug the people in your life, let them know you care and that you love them..

Everyday you wake up is a blessing.. Treat it like that.. Be thankful for all you have and enjoy the fact that you're here to have your problems..

MISTAKES makes me human. FAILURE makes me stronger. LOVE keeps me alive. But its YOU who keeps me smiling :)

Accept failure but do not accept not trying!

Never regret your past, only regret if you don't learn from it!

The moment you think of giving up, think of a reason why you held so long.. Do or die is an old saying.. Do it before you die is the new one..

If you're troubled today remember to breath slow, take one moment at a time, put the stereo on your favorite song, and sing as loud as you can!