Reasons..

I could think of so many reasons to hate you.. But it won't change the feelings that I feel...

Last day of september..

Tomorrow will be the last day of September.. This year's September, feels like it's the longest month ever.. With all the ups and downs.. All the faith and hope.. Fate twisted and destiny entangled.. But nonetheless, I survived all the ordeals with one thought in mind..

Guess I need to find a new song for my blog.. It's no longer gonna be September.. Heh..

10 Things A Modern Man Wants In A Woman

She has a life of her own!

This is the first thing that a modern man would want to have in his woman. Gone are the days when a couple were seen as a single entity. A man would love his woman to have her own social life beyond him. Closing a couple inside a world away from social life will ruin it in the long run. Now this does not mean that a couple need to be overly social. The social level of a couple varies from one couple to another but each partner must have a social life.

Sense of Humor 

Ladies prefer a guy who can make them laugh everyday. Guys are no different. They also want a woman who laughs along and keeps the relationship light and alive.

Knows what she wants 

Men like their women confident and goal oriented. It gives them a kick to know that their woman is clear in her head and knows exactly what she is doing and how. Confidence definitely scores.

Independent 

Men were the caretakers as far as our ancestors were concerned. But times have changed. With both the genders being equally successful and independent, men desire their women to be able to take care of themselves and not be the damsel in distress all the time.

Sharing Interests 

Men do not want you to like everything that they do. If you don’t like his golf club, its fine with him, so long as you are just open to sharing his experiences and listen to him. That’s all they want, a healthy sharing of interests.

Tell me straight 

All men want their women to be straight and upfront about what bothers them and not play around with words. It only confuses them. Straight talk is much appreciated. And the worst that a woman can do is to listen blindly to others and not clarify things with the man before reaching a conclusion!

She initiates sex 

The days when sex initiation was taken to be the man’s domain are quite far behind now. Men appreciate their women to come up first and start it all, infact it is a turn on for most men.

Caring 

No matter how modern or retro a man is , a caring woman is always desirable. Men want to be mothered for and not nagged, so caring is definitely a plus.

Space giving 

They love you and do not feel it is important to be told a thousand times a day over calls and mails. Men would look for a woman who does not turn on the relationship pressure on a constant basis but rather understand and give them space to be. I precise on this one. Saying lovely words and expressing love during the day and very often is very good but if you keep saying it every 30 minutes over 24 hours, then you are either mad or not busy enough! Expressing love 5 to 6 times a day is however normal.

Spontaneity
This is much under- rated, but a highly desirable trait. It is usually propagated that women love surprises, but men too, relish spontaneity and on the spur moments and would love to have a spontaneous woman.

Best song for the month..

I'm sittin' here all by myself

just tryin' to think of something to do

Tryin' to think of something, anything

just to keep me from thinking of you

But you know it's not working out

'cause you're all that's on my mind

One thought of you is all it takes

to leave the rest of the world behind

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did

And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back

but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself

that you're not the one for me

But the more I think, the less I believe it

and the more I want you here with me

You know the holidays are coming up

I don't want to spend them alone

Memories of Christmas time with you

would just kill me if I'm on my own

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did

And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do

we just can't seem to get it right

But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight

one more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar

But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far

I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you

Oh please, baby won't you take my hand

we've got nothing left to prove

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did

And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back

but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then

when we were just kids

And I didn't mean to give you chills

the way that I kiss

And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did

Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did

No, you didn't mean to love me back

But you did

Composed!

A few friends of mine always asks me..

"For how long should I suffer?"

My reply to them was..

"Suffer? What made you think that I'm suffering?"

Well.. Yeah it's true that I seemed trouble most of the times, due to my "think too much" attitude.. But never once am I suffering..

Even when the situation made me fell, I'd simply enjoy falling down, and laugh all the way as I stand back up..

Despite that, I will always cherish the feelings I have.. This is all I can do... To stay composed, and be happy about all the things that happened..

1st day of raya..

1st day of raya has come again.. And for some reason, I find myself staring into the distance... What fate has in store for me in the coming year, I do not know.. But with thoughts of you, I will, without a shadow of a doubt, stand tall and smile like I've never smiled before... :)

The Triangle of Love

Well.. The picture has said it all..

Just my thoughts...

Sometimes.. We men feel women always shoot a bullet into our heart, causing great pain..

And sometimes, women feel the same towards men..

Maybe this is the unanswerable partnership that's been bothering all human..

But sometimes..

We have to ask ourselves..

Is she or he happy with us?

Do we not want someone whose heart doesn't contain us?

Maybe.. To let go is something big.. but that would be the biggest sacrifice for love..

If you really love her, you'll be happy when she's happy..

Because..

To love is not to own..

S.O.S

Told you I made dinner plans
For you and me and no one else
That don't include your crazy friends
Well I'm done
With awkward situation's empty conversations

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half

It's like I'm walking on broken glass,
Better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get

So this is where the story ends
A conversation on IM
Well I'm done
With texting,
Sorry for the miscommunication

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half

It's like I'm walking on broken glass,
better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get
Next time I see you
I'm giving you a high five
'cause hugs are over rated, just FYI

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
Now my heart's in two

(yeah)

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
Now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half

It's like I'm walking on broken glass,
Better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get

Missing

I tried coming alone to our usual park..
It's a feeling I've never felt..
Like a child, frightened by the sound of the wind..
I ran back alone the path home..
The sky outside the window is too fast, where are you know..
Please may this reach you..
Dear Lord if you ever grant wishes,
Grant my wish right now please!
I want to hear your voice, I miss you! I want to see you now..
Why must you already be looking toward tomorrow..
Don't just brush it off saying the time has slipped by..
Once more..
I love you and yet it's been too late since long ago..
Even if I give up it can't be like the past..
Don't just decide so simply there's no way, no choice..
Smile once more..

Efforts

How not to have high expectations when you do things with 100% efforts?

Isn't it obvious? If you don't do things with full effort, how can your dreams be visualized and become a reality?..

Will someone even do things with all their can, if they have low expectations? Hmm..

Chiisana Koi No Uta..

In this wide universe, there is
A big world in a blue earth
A small memory of love will reach
You who are living in a small island

Time has passed since I met you
The letter with my piled up feelings increases
Without us realizing, it is already echoing between us
Sometimes we’re full of intensity,
sometimes we’re full of sadness

These feelings echoes distantly
This gentle love song will change the world

Look, the person who is important to you
Is right beside you
I just want you to receive
This echoing love song
Listen, listen, listen to this echoing love song

You’ve realized even when we walked
In the dark, the moonlight will shine on us
I won’t let go of you hand
I swear that these strong feelings will last for eternity

In the depths of forever, I’ll definitely say
These same words without any change of feelings
Even if it’s still not enough, it’ll change into tears
And it’ll change into joy that I can’t put into words
I’ll just hold you, I’ll just hold you

Look, the person who is important to you
Is right beside you
I just want you to receive
This echoing love song
Listen, listen, listen to this echoing love song

If it’s a dream don’t wake up, if it’s a dream don’t wake up
The time I’ve spent with you will become an everlasting star

Look, the person who is important to you
Is right beside you
I just want you to receive
This echoing love song

Look, the person who is important to you
Is right beside you
I just want you to receive
This echoing love song
Listen, listen, listen to this echoing love song

Patience?

Over the last few years, ever since my breakdown, I've learnt that going along with your emotions will bring you nowhere..

There's no point in being angry..

There's no point at all to complain..

There's no point at all to be depressed..

Life will sometimes drag you down, so you need to depend on yourself to pull you back up..

Most of the time, people will say what you wanna hear.. They lie.. But not in a bad way.. Just to lift your spirits again..

Upon walking on a path, we sometimes need to turn and take a glimpse of what we've gone through.. Just for a moment of course, and then, continue walking along the path..

Hurting yourself physically is a very good way to stop feeling hurt emotionally..

A few questions that I always ask myself.. What should I do now? By doing so, will I get the results I wanted? Can they be trusted? Why are they here? For what purpose? If things happened for a reason, what would be the reason for this?

Perhaps my bigger problem is I think too much.. And I have a few cases of... "ignorance" and "forgetting".. Maybe it's due to my persistence.. The inability to give up at such an early stage.. Even though I'm trying to forget, I'm remembering more and more.... All the laughs, joy, tears, sorrows, moments, memories that we share....