Sunday, December 27, 2009


Don't people always forget what happened in the past? For example... the face or the name of a beloved person.. What you talked about or what happy things you did.. But when you meet the person by chance, you naturally start smiling.. One remembers the feeling of having loved someone.. Even so, the purest memories are still locked in the deepest part of the brain.. No matter how forgetful one is, he or she will never forget those memories... They are eternal.. :)

*Listens to Pavane of a Dead Princess*

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Being an Optimist..

Thoughts.. Expressed through words.. Whether those words be spoken or sung, do not necessarily tell their story to ears unfamiliar with the language used... But when heart speaks to heart from the depth of inner feeling, then none are so deaf but that they may hear..

Music may be made such a potent factor that it will awaken the very highest feelings in the life of man, and through the awakening will come a life such as he was intended to live from the beginning.. If we could only realize that as life progresses there is an ever-increasing wonder of music and colour but that only through inner development can come the appreciation of it.. Then, we should look forward, not with doubts and fears to sorrowful or painful or even evil consequences that may befall us in the future time, but with pleasurable anticipation to the greater joys that we know await us..

Monday, December 14, 2009

Deja Vu...

Dear bloggie,

Today.. This morning.. Approximately 6 o'clock in the morning.. I got my heart torn apart again.. I thought she was different.. I thought that she might be the one who'd make me happy.. But in the end, she's just the same with all the heart-breakers out there..

Perhaps she was waiting for the time to get rid of me.. I know I'm just a nobody.. Not a descendant of famous people.. Nor a descendant of a royal line.. Maybe she was right.. One sided love will get you nowhere.. It didn't matter how hard I tried..

Again, I found myself slipping into the darkness.. Searching everywhere for hope..

"In everything that's good, there's always evil hiding inside..And in everything evil, there's always a glimpse of faith.. A small hope.. A small glimpse of light within the never ending darkness..."

Sunday, November 22, 2009

What Attracts You?

What do you first notice about the opposite gender? It can be their hair, their smile, what they're wearing and much more.. Some even goes for their smell.. *sniff* "She smells good.. I wanna get to know her".. Well, it happened before..

However, for me, the most intriguing thing that I notice would be their eyes.. For example, I met a lady regarding certain business.. Well.. At first she wasn't that attractive to me.. I'm not saying that she's not pretty.. In fact, she is.. Anyway.. we agreed to meet around 5 pm.. Spent around 3 hours asking about the business and of course, about herself.. But as I sat in front of her.. I started to notice her eyes.. It's as if they were glowing.. At first I thought she was using contact lenses.. It turned out that she has perfect vision.. But still.. I can't help staring at her eyes..

However.. That was it.. Once those eyes are no longer visible.. The interest is lost.. It's important to keep your spouse interested in you.. If not, that's when betrayal happens...

Can't Get Enough Of This Song..

With a comfortable feeling
I've lately greeted you
Are happy? Who are you seeing?
You're lovely as always
I hope you love well (live well)
Without anymore hardships (no more)
I'm waiting to hear
That your new love is treating you well

Be happy, now be happy
For the amount you hurt beside me
It'll be difficult, difficult for you
But for someone who can't do anything, For me..
I pray for you (I pray for my sake)
Am I too far away from you? (Am I going furthur away?)
You haven't responded to my greeting
So the place where I erased you from my heart..
Starts to hurt once more

I acted like everything was fine
And tried to laugh a little
I denied that it ever happened, said it was in the past
It was just something that happened in the past
I wanted to believe it, I wanted to forget
To play the game, I didn't say anything
And acted like I was fooling myself

Be happy, now be happy
For the amount you hurt beside me
It'll be difficult, difficult for you
But for someone who can't do anything, For me..
I pray for you (I pray for my sake)
Am I too far away from you? (Am I going furthur away?)
You haven't responded to my greeting
So the place where I erased you from my heart..
Starts to hurt once more

If it's difficult, you can come back to me
If you think of me, you can come back
If your sorry feelings
Are keeping you
For my sake, return to me
Just for a moment, smile at me
If you've forgotten the way to me
If you've forgotten, I'll look for you instead

Come back to me, now come back to me
(To me) Like it was
Even though it's hard, even though it's so hard
(Towards me) If you come back, everything will be alright
I ask for you in my prayers (I pray for my sake)
And if you can hear them (If I can hear them)
There's an empty part of me that wants you
Without anyone knowing
You can come back now... to me ....

Monday, November 16, 2009

Bowling For Soup - If You Come Back To Me

Enjoy ;)

You were right all along.
You know I hate that, admitting I was wrong.
So I don't answer the phone when it's you.
It's funny when I see the caller I.D.
Shows the phone line's still in your dad's name.
So hey, I'm doing OK.

And I'll get back to you if you come back to me.
Your voice is so Marilyn Monroe.
It's funny how that makes me wanna smash the phone.
I wonder if J.F.K. ever felt this way.
All alone, like Summer when it snows.
So out of place, so out of those fake smiles.
I used to do so well.
And here's the part of the song
Where I start to break down like my broken heart.
But it's not gonna matter
The lines are all down from a hurricane
They should have named after you.
Maybe I should get a Scorpions ringtone
To remind me of you.

So hey, I'm doing OK.
And I'll get back to you if you come back to me.
Oh, here we go.
Just like a broken record skippin' apart
That we both oughta know by heart.
([2nd time:]
And I can still hear you singing along)

We were right there and now it seems so tragic.
No happy ending now this whole thing seems so drastic.
You asked me 20 times where we could find our magic.
Ask David Copperfield or even Rick O'Casic.

David Blaine,(where's the magic?)
Lance Burton, (where's the magic?)
Harry Potter,(where's the magic?)
I used to think pop rocks were magic.

Sigfried and Roy, (where's the magic?)
Shaquille O'Neal,
(why'd you leave the magic?)
You asked me 20 times,
Or was it 28,
And your greatest trick ever
Was your great escape.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Funny.. :))

It's really funny when someone talks about stuff he/she doesn't really know..
It's really funny when someone tries to prove themselves right even though they're wrong..
It's ridiculously funny when someone gives too much excuses for everything..
It's amazingly funny when someone tries to deny the truth even though the proof is right there in front of him/her..
And somehow.. It's truly funny when someone become too obsessed with something that he/she doesn't notice what's going on around them..

It's amazing! Truly spectacular! With just one change of a letter, a whiner becomes a winner..

The road to victory lies open when one stop whining and actually do something about it.. When there's a will, there's ALWAYS a way :)

Monday, October 5, 2009

Why Geeks Make Good Lovers! Haha

One of the Universal Truths that lie just beyond the fabric of modern society is the axiom that geeks, along with nerds and other peoples who over-invest in intelligence but boast underdeveloped social skills, make the best lovers. Once people realize this, the sexual revolution that will sweep through western culture will make the seventies look like the fifties, and I’m not talking about wider pants. The reasons why geeks are unparalleled as lovers are simple and many:

Geeks don’t sleep around!!
Geeks, through their higher IQ and therefore greater understanding of the tragedy of human condition, know that the dice only seem to have more sides on the other side of the table. Hence, they instinctively stay loyal to their lovers through thick and thin. Their social skills are also not well developed enough to support an affair, and frankly, geeks generally aren’t quite sure how they ended up with the lover they have attracted. When you date a geek, you know the geek will be yours until you are done.

Geeks are good at the things they try!
When’s the last time you met a geek who didn’t have some secret skill just simmering below the surface of a simple-seeming life, honed in the wee hours of the night? It could be hacking, playing video games, or the ability to insert and remove those stupid computer power plug things from drives without cursing or breaking a finger. Let sex become their new favorite late-night hobby, and you know that a geek won’t quit until he or she has learned how to hack into your brainstem through specific genitalia interfacing in parallel with general dermal and oral bonding.

Geeks are not interested in status!
Geeks became geeks because they chose to spend their time doing things that would not necessarily make them popular with everyone else in school, like sports and fashion. The ability to resist peer pressure is important to a geek. This means that a geek is more interested in their or your happiness than looking good to others, which will come in handy when either (a) you need attention, in any sort ranging from the nurturing to the lascivious, and also, because both of those things are not necessarily unorthagonal dimensions, any combination of the two, or (b) you need to be rescued because it is the climax of a teen 80’s movie. Or both.

Geeks haven’t formed bad habits!
After years of serially dating lots of other women, many socially successful guys have become too confident to be intimate, think of women only for sex, and don’t have any intention of letting what in their minds is “just another girlfriend” enjoy the last spring roll. Let us not even pry into the diabolical, dark, twisted, and depraved mind of the girl who has serially dated many men. None of this is true of the geek, however. The lack of past romantic partners allows the geek to approach lovers with the zest of the neophyte. Geeks are not full of romantic confidence; however, once coaxed from their emotional holes like tame bunnies, they are eager to please and enjoy their newly found relationship.

Geeks can concentrate!
Geeks can focus their energy on one task with the intensity of a hunting cheetah. Granted, the task they are focusing on may have more to do with hunting orcs with a +1 Sword of Piercing rather than hunting gazelles with claws, but the fact remains that a geek, once set upon a task and given Mountain Dew, becomes a tireless slave to their goal. Put a six-pack of Dew on the bedside table and a geek between the sheets, and you have found yourself one relentless lover. When’s the last time all night actually meant all night? When’s the last time you were with someone who, if they needed more of the night, knew how to get it?

Geeks have excellent finger dexterity!!
Geeks roll dice. Geeks play video games. Geeks flip pages in books. Geeks type a lot, and use characters like ~ and ^ and | that no one else has any use for. Geeks use calculators in postfix notation. As a result, a geek knows how to use his or her fingers to greatest possible effect. Whether you have a button that needs pushing or a joystick that needs joy, a geek is the person for the job.

Geeks have imagination!
Once you have found your amazing lover, you wouldn’t want things to become boring. That is where geeks prove their real worth. Replayability is important to the value-conscious video-game playing geek, and this translates to relationships as well. Wouldn’t you want to date someone who has created a Quake 3 mod? Wouldn’t you want to date someone who has written steamy EverQuest fan fiction involving elven incest? Wouldn’t you want to date someone who wished they were Morpheus rather than someone who wished they were Barry Bonds?

There are plenty of other reasons why geeks are the best lovers around, but don’t just take my word for it. Find the nearest sexy geek and coax that person into asking you out, even if you have to do so using instant messenger. Remember: the only non-sexy geek is a single geek.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Cari Pacar Lagi XD

I got nothing to do right now.. So might as well translate this song =/

My love.. my love for you..
Is not as much as before..
The way u measure my love..
Too little in your eyes..

Oh ho I am sorry~
I won't love you anymore..

The way I hug you..
Is not as affectionate as before..
I cheated because you cheated..
Let both of us cheat together~

Oh ho I am sorry~
I won't love you anymore..

Let us just break off..
I don't want my hurt to get hurt..
It's better if I finish it off..
I don't want my feelings to suffer..

Don't you always feel that..
You're not the only woman around..
It's better if I break it off..
Find another spouse~


Omg.. The song suddenly sounds weird.. Heh.. But facts are facts.. If going on with a relationship would only make both of u suffer, why should u continue with it? Go out and find another that can make you feel whole again.. Nuff said.. That's all for now.. Take care =D


First of all, here's my take on why relationships fail...

When you first start dating someone that you really like, the body releases a combination of chemicals that are quite literally intoxicating.. These chemicals cause you to want to be with that person all the time, stay up all night talking to them, and have sex three times a day..

But twelve to eighteen months later, the chemicals change.. The intoxicating chemicals are replaced by 'stability' chemicals.. The 'stayup-all-night-can't-be-away-from-her-have-sex-three-times-a-day' feeling goes away and the 'lets-settle-down-and-have-two-kids-and-buy-a-minivan' chemicals take over.. Deal with it..

So now that you know this, how do you keep this whole thing from turning into an episode of All In The Family?

Well, the short answer is, keep up the fun, interesting, unpredictable behavior.. Notice the details.. Do thoughtful things..

Here's something that I've learned in life: If you want to get back more than you give, then play the stock market.. It's not gonna happen in relationships.. In fact, if you want to get a lot back, you're probably going to have to give even more..

Most people are selfish, and they say "I'm not going to give more than I get".. But instead of getting a lot, all they get is old and unhappy.. I've found that it's much better to give a ton and get back a lot in return, not caring about the fact that I didn't get as much as I gave, than to give little or none and get back little or none..

Relationships aren't like investing.. If you want a lot, get used to giving more.. But it's worth it in the end, because love and attention and humor and fun aren't like money.. If you give them out, you don't have less.. You have MORE.. Get it?

Anyway, here's what I think about woman generally.. Every woman is a unique creature.. But women have more commonalities than they have differences.. So let's start with what I think they have in common, then we'll move on to

For most men, a woman is like a Chinese puzzle inside of a brain twister. Much of their behavior makes no sense at all.. Well at least to men..

If there's one thing that I'm clear about, it's that most women THINK differently than most men and most women want different things than most men..
This is hard for many men to grasp or understand, but it's true.. And the sooner you get a handle on what's going on here, the sooner you'll be more successful with women..

For starters, let's compare what both men and women are interested in.. Have you ever stopped to think about what entertains women as a group compared to what entertains men as a group? Women buy Cosmopolitan magazine, watch soap operas, and read romance novels.. Men buy Playboy, watch sports, and read the paper.. Hmm.. Why are women so attracted to these things? Why is it when men try to do those things as well, they just don't get it..

I'll tell you why.. It's because women's brains are wired differently from men's brains.. That's why.. And by telling you about what attracts women's attention, I've also given you a clue about how to attract them to YOU.. =D

Monday, June 22, 2009


In order to achieve an aim, something else must be sacrificed.. Does this phrase seemed familiar? Perhaps.. Even in Newton's Third Law (Law of Motion) stated that To every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Tagged by nad AGAIN! -_-"

1. Do you have any secrets?

2. Have you tried not eating anything for few days?
yups.. and I got admitted to the hosp for it..

3. Do you enjoy going school?
Only if I'm gonna meet my friends there..

4. Coffee or more coffee?
I don't take caffeine..

5. Laughter or forever smile?
Forever smile.. No one will know what's going on deep inside you..

6. Who is more important? Lover or best friends?

7. The person you like is already attached, what will you do?
All I can do is to be there for her (if I'm still single)

8. What made you smile today?
A text from someone..

9. Angelic or Devilish?

10. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Depends on what happens tomorrow.. and the day after.. and the day after.. and so on..

11. Who are currently most important people to you?
She is...

12. What is the most important thing in life?
Love and honesty..

13. Are you single or attached?

14. What is your favourite colour?

15. What is your wish?
To be able to be away from the sources of my problems..

16. Have you ever wondered what would happen afterlife?

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
Only and only if the person apologize and regretted his/her action..

18. Which do you prefer? Spending time with family or being close with people who understand you?
Spend time with people who understand me..

19. What is your biggest regret in your life?
To have strayed far from my original aim..

20. 5 people you're tagging?
- dena
- deevon
- lee
- diana
- ika

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Tagged by nad =X

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
Cheek kot..

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
I feel like missing someone :">

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
My sister.. In the airplane on the way back from KK

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled ?
Maybe.. But in a rebellious kind of way >:)

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
Sure.. Why not..

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
Only in games though XD

8. What does your last text message say ?
"Then u'll love this.. One day I'll bring you.. I promise.."

9. What are you thinking right now ?
What will happen tonight..?

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
10 sumthing.. Didn't realize the time

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
I found it in my brother's closet.. He said I can have it lol..

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
Of course

14. Who was the last person who texted you ?

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz :
1. Dena
2. Deevon
3. Ika
4. Diana
5. Zima
6. Ap
7. Faisal
8. Jasmin
9. Lee
10. Alan

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
With no 4.. haha

16. Is no.3 a male or a female ?

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
No.. No 7 prefers chinese even though he's malay.. haha

18. What is no.1 studying about ?
Going to be a teacher..

19. When was the last time you chatted with them ?
Quite some time ago..

20.Is no.4 single ?

21. Say something about no.2.
My sis.. who loves to bully me..

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together ?
Wow.. I'm not so sure..

23. Describe no.9
Wear specs, easily mistaken for a chinese, thin, easily persuaded >:)

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ?
A battle of words and curses and it goes on and on and on.. haha

25. Do you like no.8 ?
She's my best friend

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Motives In Life..

I've been having these conversations with my friends.. Listening to what they're trying to achieve, what road are they on and loads of other stuff.. It just got me thinking.. Where am I? What the hell am I doing here.. I need to regain my self-esteem again.. Now that I've quit my studies temporarily, I need to focus on things that matters.. And so I've come up with a list..

1. I wanna lose some weight.. Not 10, not 20, but at least 30.. I don't wanna stay in this 3 digit margin anymore.. Losing more than 10 would've suffice for that purpose.. But I'm not gonna stop there.. So, 30 would be the magic number.. It'll return me to the days where I used to play basketball and hopefully, the days where optimism filled me..

2. Body building.. Yeah.. That's the way.. Soon after I'll lose all those extra baggage, I'm gonna start to bulk up my muscles.. I already have broad shoulders to begin with.. So why not try to pump up these flabby muscles.. I still remember a few days ago.. I went to Alamanda Putrajaya.. Went to the arcade.. There was a punching machine.. The highest (heaviest) punch was 100kg.. Mine was only 96kg.. Arm strength is not the only important aspect in punching.. The motion, and steps are also important.. Hit hard, hit fast! If I can't even protect myself, how can I protect those I care about.. So, it can be concluded as, learning self defense as I bulk up..

3. Over the last few months.. Last few years actually.. I've been getting comments, more like complaints of why I'm using my intelligence in a proper way.. I've been using my brain to sneak out out late at night, to achieve my desires, and just to do what I want.. It's true that my mom's been nagging at me.. But I don't start doing something productive, all these annoying nags won't stop.. So, as I've accomplished the top 2 in my list, I'm gonna continue my studies.. By then, I'll be more determined than ever.. Not gonna repeat the same mistakes again.. And hell I'm not gonna wait anymore..

In everything that's good, there's evil hiding inside.. And in everything evil, there's always a glimpse of faith.. A small hope.. A small glimpse of light within never ending darkness..

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I Just Don't Get It..

I am seriously fucked up with my mom.. Yeah she's been a bitch all these while.. Growing up, she was never there to see.. Even when I'm down, she was never there.. And when she was, she was never supportive at all.. And now, even worse, every time something went wrong in this house, I would get blamed for it.. Simple reason : I was the only one at home.. What kind of a bullshit reason is that? Just because I am home doesn't mean that I was the one who did it.. Several times already she lost something and she found it back because she misplaced it..

I still remember.. I did something wrong and I was forced to promise not to do it again after saying sorry.. Why can't she do the same? I don't think she's superior to me in any way at all.. Every human being are equals.. It doesn't matter whether he's the prime minister or even president of the universe.. You eat, you breath, you sleep.. You get shot, you bleed, you die.. Everyone is the same..

The question remained.. Well, at least now I know all the source of my problems already.. Parents that were never there when you needed them.. Growing up alone.. Being taught to be selfish by my own family, in the end, I'm the one being selfish to them..

Friday, May 8, 2009

Just Some Thoughts..

Love is just a type of feeling.. Although feelings are human weakest point, that's where we were always striken.. Hate causes war, murders, and destruction of one's race.. So does excessive love.. It will cause craziness, uneasiness and furthermore, sadness..

"The moment u felt true love, you love someone with all u have, understand their frailty and accepting who they are without ever noticing their weakness while noticing their good side.. However, the moment you fell blindly in love with someone, you'd thought of him/her being so perfect that you fail to notice their good and bad behaviors because you are drunk with this ecstasy that you think about yourself".. These are words conveyed by my heart, when my mind are still sane, to quickly end this weird "hunger" or obsession that always accompany my life lately..

Love is never blind.. It's to be blind by their weakness.. Not their mistakes.. Yes people make mistakes.. I understand that.. As an imperfect person, even I make mistakes.. But the difference between me and her was, I tried to mend my mistakes.. Tried to make things right again even for a little while.. Never once do I run from conflicts..

And at the same time, I'm really longing for someone special.. Someone I can hold in my arms.. Someone who would comfort me when I'm down.. Someone to listen to.. Someone to talk to.. Someone to share all my joys and tears

Monday, April 6, 2009

Change Of Songs..

There's been a change of songs that I should listen to.. Enjoy.. Sorry but I'm a little bit busy lately.. Haven't got the time to update my blog

Monday, March 9, 2009

Tagged by ika =/

Do u think you' are hot?
Nope.. I'm cold

Upload a favourite picture of you:

Gives three reason why u like that picture:

1. This picture was when I lost 24 kgs
2. The first social event that I've been to (that requires dancing)
3. It became my avatar in MSN and YM XD

When was the last time u ate pizza?
1 month ago

The last song u listen?
Imran Ajmain - Selamat Ulang Tahun Sayang

What are u doing right now besides this?
Setting my Granado Espada characters to camp

What name you prefer besides yours?
atikah afrina maybe?

People to tag:
1. Deevon
2. Shanny
3. Lee
4. Nadeera
5. Ap

Who is number one?
My ex-roommate

Number three is having relationship with?
His pc

Say something about nombor five?
He has moustache and beard now XD

How about number four?
One of my online friends

Who is number two?
Number one's gf

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Personality Test..

Personality Test By Quizbox

LoL.. These are my results..

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve

A Sudden Change In Life..

Today was the hardest day for me yet.. I'm not sure why every kiss i see pointed me to my old memories.. It's been, exactly.. 1 year and 1 month since i had my last real kiss.. why does it still hurt so bad remembering her.. Moving on, how does one really do it? Even with advises, encouragement from friend, family and even strangers, I still have problems forgetting about her.. I don't know why I still can't forget about her.. Althought it's in my nature to forgive and forget, this is THE ONLY thing that I have yet to FnF.. Somehow, AGAIN, I wonder.. What does love is all about? What love really is? Why do people say they're in love with you and the next thing you know, they betray you?

When I've lost all hope and faith about love, a friend told me, made me remember of how great love truly is..

Love is not natural! It's not something that will exist in a snap of a finger.. It has to be nurtured.. It will develop over time.. In all, almost all love start with friendship.. Start by showing someone you care for them.. It's better than to hope that someone will eventually fall in love with you..

All the things I've mentioned.. are easier said than done.. Well, it's true that I've lost my faith.. But it's not the end of the line just yet!

"If you can't have faith, rely on your heart.. No matter how weak, do what is most right on your end.. Control yourself or be controlled.. There is no one stronger than yourself, not me, not your parents, not the world.. Always remember that.. Your life.. Your whole world is your choice.. your decision.. There is no buts! No hesitation! The world will still move on even if you say no or yes.. Don't ever let others choose your path.. Choose your own path.. Be it good or bad.. At the very least, you know in your heart I have went the path I've chosen"

Life.. is like.. Getting or mining for a diamond.. Getting a diamond.. you can't get to choose the size you want.. Mining for one, at the very least, you can choose the size.. And of course, if you mined the biggest one, you can't expect anything else bigger..

As I looked back into the past, what I've been doing was just waiting for that someone special (while letting myself rot of course).. Suddenly, it hit me.. Even when that someone special comes, she's not gonna help me up..

Everything starts from within me.. Thus, I've made my decision.. I'm gonna stop studying for a while.. As of February 21st, 2008, I am no longer an MMU student.. I would like to say thanks to all my friends who have been very supportive.. However, this is something I must do by myself... I'm not gonna wait for a miracle anymore.. Instead, I'm gonna make my own miracles happen! Wish me luck :)

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Basic Principle Of Attractions..

Interpersonal attraction is the attraction between people which leads to friendships and romantic relationships.. The study of interpersonal attraction is a major area of research in social psychology.. Interpersonal attraction is related to how much we like, love, dislike, or hate someone.. It can be viewed as a force acting between two people that tends to draw them together and resist their separation.. When measuring interpersonal attraction, one must refer to the qualities of the attracted as well as the qualities of the attractor to achieve predictive accuracy.. It is suggested that to determine attraction, personality and situation must be taken into account.

Repulsion is also a factor in the process of interpersonal attraction, one's conception of "attraction" to another can vary from extreme attraction to extreme repulsion..

From what I've known, there are 6 figures of attraction...

1. Similarity
- Have you ever heard of the phrase, "birds of a feather flock together"? There is a lay belief actual similarity produces attraction.. People are attracted to others who are similar to them in demographics, physical appearance, attitudes, interpersonal style, social and cultural background, personality, interests and activities preferences, and communication and social skills.

2. Complementarity
- Complementary partners preferred closer interpersonal relationship than non-complementary ones.. People were more attracted to peers approximating to their ideal self than to those who did not.. This is basically saying he/she completes me.. Although similarity and complementary contradicts on the surface, they agree on a dimension of warmth.. In short, similarity depends on initial attraction whereas complementary develops over time..

3. Social Exchange Theory (Familiarity)
- People's feelings toward a potential partner are dependent on their perception of rewards and costs, the kind of relationships they deserve, and their likelihood for having a healthier relationship with someone else. Rewards are the part of a relationship that makes it worthwhile and enjoyable. A cost is something that can cause irritation like a friend overstaying his welcome. Comparison level is also taken into account during a relationship. This suggests that people expect rewards or costs depending on the time invested in the relationship. If the level of expected rewards are minimal and the level of costs is high, the relationship suffers and both parties may become dissatisfied and unhappy. Lastly, the comparison of alternatives means that satisfaction is conditional on the chance that a person could replace the relationship with a more desirable one.

4. Reciprocal Liking
- Reciprocal liking is an effect of where a person who is liked by another will tend to return that liking.. It reflects the notion that people enjoy the company of those who give them positive feelings because of the self-fulfilling prophecy..

*The self-fulfilling prophecy is, in the beginning, a false definition of the situation evoking a new behaviour which makes the original false conception come 'true'. This specious validity of the self-fulfilling prophecy perpetuates a reign of error. For the prophet will cite the actual course of events as proof that he was right from the very beginning*

5. Propinquity
- The propinquity effect is the tendency for people to form friendships or romantic relationships with those whom they encounter often.. In other words, proximity or closeness.. An unprecedented situation may occur and you tend to develop feelings towards the person.. The feelings of easiness or comfort when you meet someone more often.. The way a person treats you.. Every single detail matters..

6. Physical Attraction
- "That girl/guy is cute.. I want to get to know her".. How often do we feel this way when we meet people? Besides that, there are females who preferred big guys since they feel safer with them.. Some hot guys prefer non-hot type girls instead.. Even a young girl may fall in love with an old guy and vice versa.. It's simply the perception of the physical traits of an individual human person as pleasing or beautiful.. It can include various implications, such as sexual attractiveness and physique.. To sum it all, "Beauty lies in the eyes of beholder"..

Platonic friendship.. The first I've heard about this phrase was a few days ago.. Different gender being best friends without developing any feelings.. Well, it might have a little bit of feeling to some of them at first.. But slowly, the thought that it would never work out between us or she's not meant for me arise.. It's like the heart is rejecting what it truly desires.. Somehow, being friends, best friends are better off than being couples.. No obligations or responsibilities of belonging to someone.. And still, when you need someone to talk to or ask opinion, they are always there to listen and give their point of view..

However, there are cases where platonic friendship evolves into marriage.. 2 person may be in love for a looooonnnggg time.. In the end, they ended up marrying their best friend instead.. From my point of view, there's no such thing as "No FEELING friendship".. There will always be feelings for another but what type of feelings? When we talk about love, well, other than love at first sight(or chat in some cases), doesn't it always start with friendship? Do give your comments on this ^^

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Shelter.. By Corrinne May.. Enjoy~

What's wrong, whats getting you down
Is it something I might have said?
You're walking around
with your head to the ground
and your eyes are watery red

I know you've been through rough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
but you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you
'cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at tour door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

We share a bond
You and I we belong
We're like coffee and morning trains
You strip my defenses
I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins
I swore I'd be your lifeline
Made a vow that I'd surround you with love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when
So promise me you'll

Call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let my be your shelter my friend