High Score!

Though my thumb is hurting.. I finally managed to set a new high score for bowling.. ^_^

186!! do click on the picture for a clearer view

If I can do this with an injured thumb, imagine how I'll perform when it's better.. Hmmm..

Focus is important.. With focus, anything is possible! ＼(^_^)／

New playlist

I have a new playlist on my blog.. nuff said lol

Unexpected...

For some reason, since I stopped my addiction to computer games, I've become addicted with bowling.. If last time, I'd play games to reduce my stress, now, it's bowling.. Through bowling, it allows me to concentrate fully on the game itself..

For starters, let me show u my bowling balls..

The red one is 12lbs, and for straight while the purple one is 13lbs and it's for hooks

It's only recently that I started playing hooks.. Before, it's always either straight or backup(reverse hook).. The holes for the hand placement are different.. So you can't do a good hook with a straight ball..

For the first time ever, my finger was bleeding.. I wasn't sure when exactly did it started bleeding.. But it should be after my 3rd game.. Imagine bowling with an injured thumb, and continued for the next 5 games..

This was when I realized my finger was bleeding..


After the 5th game..


After completing my 8th game..


After I cleaned all the powder and the dried blood off my hand..

Yeah.. It hurts.. But for some reason, when I bowl, I don't feel the pain at all.. It started hurting as I focused on the injury..

I guess what they say about the Law of Attraction is correct.. Be it out-of-the-blue, fell into place, serendipity, coincidence, synchronicity, luck, fate, meant to be, or even karma.. The law of attraction is actually at work..

It goes like this.. From words, thoughts are created, and from thoughts, comes vibration... The law of attraction checks out what vibration you are giving, either positive or negative.. Then it matches and GIVES BACK MORE OF THE SAME VIBRATION YOU'RE GIVING OUT.. If you give out negative vibration, it will give back negative feelings, and if you give out positive vibration, it will give back positive feelings..

Words -> Thoughts -> Vibration -> Result

Now.. What is a vibration? Vibration is taken from the word vibe is often used to describe a mood, or a feeling that you picked up from someone, or something.. So be careful when you're feeling down, you MIGHT be sending out negative vibes to everyone else..

What you experience, and how you react, will affect everything around you.. The law of attraction responds to how you feel about what you say, and how you feel about what you think..

The first step to improve yourselves is, to IDENTIFY what makes you feel good and do more of it.. Be clear of what you want.. Sounds easy right? The challenge is that most people are not good at knowing what they DO want, but they are good at identifying what they DON'T want.. Knowing what you don't want is actually good news.. You can observe contrast and identify it.. As you do that, you will become clearer of what you want..

So tell me.. What do YOU really WANT? And what have you DONE to acquire it?

Tagged by Doryn again =|

Thanks for the award Doryn~

And I need to answer a few questions:



Write 5 interesting facts about the person who gave you this award

* kind
* cute
* a football maniac
* always and i mean ALWAYS post on her facebook wall
* thanks for her I've realized certain things..

Jots down 10 interesting facts about yourself and your hobby

- I'm crazy about study of the mind / soul
- I love to bowl :D
- Someone called me silly :P
- Prefers to be alone at home
- I always drive fast when I'm alone
- I can't sit still without thinking
- I hate football.. Nuff said xD
- I like classical music and oldies..
- When I set my mind on something, I will do whatever I can to get my goal..
- Be nice to me and I'll be nice to you regardless of who you are


Pick your most 10 deserving recepients and describe them

* Nadd.. A close friend of mine for 2 years+.. Don't know about what I'd do without her..
* Deevon.. My gaming buddy.. and my ex-roommate..
* Anna.. My ex-classmate when I was studying in MMU
* Ap.. My MMU friend
* Hanip.. Ex-classmate in MMU
* MedeaDayana.. A fren from MMU
* Ika.. A blog fren
* Puteri Aladdin.. blog fren as well
* kiki.. blog fren
* Effa.. another blog fren

XeNo

Nicknames.. How did you get yours?

As for me, I got it from a game Xenogears, of which I played when I was 15, and the first adventure RPG that I've played.. And as I ventured further into the game, I found out that a gear is what they'd call a robot.. And Xeno is strange.. So.. Xenogears means strange robots..

Why I like this nick?
It's simple actually.. I like to see myself as strange.. Not strange as in weird.. But strange as in different from others..

FYI, Xenos is a word used in the Greek language from Homer onwards that has a wide gradient of meaning, signifying such divergent concepts as “enemy stranger” as well as “ritual friend”.. can also be used simply to assert that someone is not a member of your community, that is simply foreigner and with no implication of reciprocity or relationship.. Xenos generally refers to the variety of what a particular individual can be, specifically guest, host, stranger, friend, and, as previously mentioned, foreigner..

And also, Xenos is the Greek concept of hospitality, or generosity and courtesy shown to those who are far from home..

Now ask yourself.. Why do you like your nick?

Note to self

Well.. I have to admit.. It didn't take long for me to realize this.. Thanks to an old friend of mine for the advice..

I've been heartbroken for a few times already.. Another one shouldn't really matter..

Well.. It's true.. Now that I've thinking rationally again, perhaps this is for the best.. I wouldn't be hoping for anything more, and she wouldn't be stressed out because of me.. What's more important now is for me to focus on myself, and improving myself!

Life is always unfair.. It's up to you to do something about it.. If you do nothing, then nothing will change.. Get up! And change your fate!

I'm not sure what to write today.. So I'll just recall what I've recently read and learnt.. And that would be bowling..

The Preparation

First of all, what you need is a good bowling ball.. Not too heavy and not too light.. It's best if you get your own bowling ball rather than borrowing or renting it.. This way, you can get used to your ball and what it does to your advantage!

Always, and I mean ALWAYS get half size bigger than your actual shoe size.. They need to be taken care of and it's always best if they're your own.. That way your foot gets used to it and works better instead of hurting you..

Did you know? Bowling requires tremendous amount of concentration.. When you start, you need to concentrate on HOW PEOPLE BOWL.. And when it's your turn, you need deep concentration to correlate between styles and moves.. Then, the stance is very crucial. The person must stand nearly one and a half meters away from the foul line. Face the pins directly and in a straight line.. The ball must be held at waist height. Out of the seven pins, the middle one must never be aimed.. Right-handed bowlers must aim for the right arrow and left-handers for the left one..

Steps to Bowl

1. Step forward with the right foot and push the ball out and down simultaneously.. The ball then swings down to the side like a pendulum..
2. The left hand is extended outwards for balancing..
3. the ball moves maximum backwards, but not more than shoulder height.. The elbow should be straight..
4. With the left knee bent, slide forward using the left foot.. The ball must naturally roll off the hand..

Tips

Don't look at the pins or you will get distracted and throw off key.. Watch where you release and watch the ball go over your mark.. It won't always do that and you have to learn from your mistake.. Have a follow through.. When you release the ball make sure your arm goes up or you may hurt your arm permanently in the future.. I hope this will help you bowl better..

Diary of an Insomniac page 165

It's now.. 12 hours.. since she said goodbye to me..... A very LONG 12 hours... Still.. So many questions remained in my mind..

Life is.. not interesting anymore.. Nor is it meaningful.. Nor even pleasant.. I.. used to look upon everything as try to something interesting about them.. But.. somehow.. I just can't.. How can I concentrate when everything seems... meaningless?..

Part of me has disappeared.. The very part that made me become an optimist..

Looking forward to tomorrow.. Having confidence at anything I do.. Always do thing wholeheartedly.. Working hard on the present.. Making the past as a lesson to never make the same mistake in the future.. Always expecting the best possible outcome from any given situation.. Seizing opportunity as they come.. The best part of being who I really am..

And now, the opportunity that lies upon me is her.. I mean.. was.. She has made herself clear that she's not an opportunity anymore..

If only.. I could clear her doubts..

If only.. I could hear her thoughts..

If only.. I was less persistent on getting her attention..

If only.. I understand how she really feels..

If only.. I knew what she went through...

I have made a vow.. And I intend to keep it.. One way or another.. Be it directly or indirectly.. I'll be there for her... As long as she needs me.. Where or when...

Here's something for her..

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
...People filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
The trust and self-assurance that can lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us,
Doesn't keep me warm

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you, Baby
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down and hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you inside

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

So... Will you forgive me?.. If you're reading this..

Dear My Secret Lover..

I just wanna say that..

I love you more than anything in the world though no one knows about it.. I'll still love you with all my heart.. Even though you're just my secret lover..

You can be sure that you are my true love.. The one I've been looking for all my life.. I will give the rest of my love only for you..

I do love you N.. I really do.. Though it took me some time to realize it.. But the feelings are true.. No doubt about it..

N.. For as long as I'm with you.. Nothing is impossible.. I will do everything I can to make you happy.. So please, be mine...

Sincerely,
Naz..

And so, I dedicate these 2 songs for you..

It did happen huh?

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realized
It's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something, somewhere got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older, older
You know I'd fight for you
But how can I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
I don't care if that's not fair

Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you in memories
I feel it in my heart
But I don't show it, show it
Then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right
I know it, know it
Don't make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time to show and tell

Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here
With nothing...

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've
Got no more room
No room inside for me in your life

Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
It's now or never

Is it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never

Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here
With nothing at all

Somehow.. I think this would be the perfect song to describe the situation I'm in right now.. I know that I might be greedy.. But really.. I do not want to share you with anyone at all.. I love you.. And I know that you do love me too.. But to you, I'm more suited to be just friends.. Right?

It ended with a telephone call.. Literally.. Nuff said.. Friends.. Well.. It might be better than nothing.. At least I can still be there for you... When you needs me..

The Night..

It's gonna one loooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnngggggggg night tonight.. I got a hunch about it...

It Must Have Been Love.. But It's Over Now...

So.. Here I am bloggers.. Heartbroken.. Again..

No matter how much she says she loves me.. Her action proved otherwise.. I really.. Don't understand.. Every single time I find love, and love abandoned me.. What am I supposed to do?

All the promises.. Mean nothing to me now.. They are just words.. Words that are meant to sooth.. Only for that purpose.. Said without any intention to be kept.. I should have seen it coming..

Lay a whisper on my pillow
Leave the winter on the ground
I wake up lonely, is there a silence
In the bedroom and all around

Touch me now, I close my eyes
And dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out

Make believing we're together
That I'm sheltered by your heart
But in and outside I turn to water
Like a teardrop in your palm

And it's a hard winter's day
I dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now
It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without
It must have been love, but it's over now
It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows

It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
It must have been love, but it's over now
From the moment we touched till the time had run out

Now.. There's nothing I can do about it.. And there's nothing to be done by anyone.. I am just a guy who wants to love and to be loved..

3 words.. Truly.. Madly.. Deeply..

3 words to explain it, 3 simple words.. ^_^

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful
'Cos I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me...

And when the stars are shining brightly
In the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish
Send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy
For all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of..
The highest power.
In lonely hours.
The tears devour you..

I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cos it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly madly deeply do...

I'm Sorry...

“I’m sorry.” Two simple words and yet two of the hardest to say. We easily utter them in response to trivial matters like accidentally jostling a stranger on the subway or giving the cashier the wrong change. Yet in important matters and to those who mean the most to us, we can find ourselves practically choking on the words. But the inability to apologize can critically wound all of our relationships, from home to work. Learning how to properly apologize is a necessary step in moving from boy to man.

Why We Don’t Apologize

Pride. Apologizing can be particularly hard for men because it involves the admittance of fault. It’s hard to say that we messed up. That we were wrong. Our pride gets in the way.

Embarrassment. If we messed up royally, doing something truly boneheaded even though we knew better, it can be difficult to talk about it to the person we hurt or let down. We feel stupid and would rather pretend like it didn’t happen.

Anger. Things that need apologizing for are rarely a one way street (more on this later). We probably did something wrong, but the other person probably did too. And sometimes our anger over how they offended us is so great that we justify what we did and can’t get past it to apologize.

The antidote to all 3 obstacles? Humility. The reason we put up these walls is that we have an overinflated view of our true selves. We’re always right; we always have it together. But it ain’t true. We’re human. We mess up sometimes. You have to accept your imperfection as a part of life. Suppressing it will cut you off from others. Embracing it will allow you to grow as a man.

When to Apologize

Even when it’s not fully your fault. There is a breed of man who will not apologize unless he feels 100% at fault for something. “But it’s not my fault!” is his battle cry. He’s not at fault for throwing away an important document at work because no one specifically told him to hold onto it. He’s not at fault for hurting his girlfriend’s feelings because she shouldn’t have been listening to his conversation with his friends.

But almost no situation is 100% one person’s fault. If your wife flew off the handle and called you some cutting things for seemingly no reason, it’s not because she’s just an ice princess; she’s hurt because you’ve been working 80 hour weeks and not spending enough time with her.

Even if the fault split is something like 1%/99%, you still need to work hard to humble yourself and come to an understanding of what that 1% is rooted in. Don’t live your life as though every day you’re pleading your case before an imaginary court, presenting evidence for why you are not at fault and are innocent as charged. It’s not as important to be right as it is to have healthy relationships with others. Would you rather be right than give up your relationship with someone? Would you rather be right than lift the hurt feelings from another? Being self-satisfied in your justice offers little benefit but the feeling of smugness. And smugness won’t keep you warm at night.

You don’t have to apologize for what truly wasn’t your fault, but you can find the things, no matter how small, that you could have handled better. Once you apologize for those things, that will get the ball rolling for the other person to own up to their mistakes. Don’t let pride stop you from being the bigger person and taking the initiative.

Even when you haven’t been caught. As a boy, did you ever break something and then run away, hoping that no one would notice, and that if they did, they wouldn’t connect the crime back to you? This is how a child handles his mistakes. A man owns up to his mistakes and offenses whether or not he thinks he will be held accountable.

Quickly. Apologize as soon as you can after making a mistake or committing an offense. The longer you wait, the more resentment is going to build up on both sides, the harder it will be to make the first move, and the more awkward the situation will become. Be a man and nip it in the bud.

When Not to Apologize

For your beliefs. If you offend someone by standing up for your beliefs because you failed to debate like a gentleman and ended up being snarky, attacking the person personally, or generally acting like an ass, then you should apologize for your boorish behavior. However, if you’ve made a completely respectful argument in favor of your position and a person is simply offended because of the nature of your beliefs, then you should never apologize for that. Don’t be sorry for what you hold near and dear to your heart.

For not meeting unreasonable expectations. You know this guy. His girlfriend expects him to kowtow to her every wish and treat her like a princess 24/7. When he fails to do this, she expects him to grovel in repentance. This isn’t being sensitive, it’s being a whipped weenie.

For everything. This man apologizes for his appearance, for things that aren’t his fault that no one is saying are his fault, and for perceived shortcomings that no one notices until he brings them up. And he keeps on apologizing. Over and over again when everyone else has moved on. Being a compulsive apologizer is highly emasculating and instead of getting you into people’s good graces as you might assume, will simply erode their respect for you.

How to Apologize

Write it if you can’t say it. Sometimes our embarrassment or pride prevents us from going in person to apologize to someone. While a face to face apology is always ideal, if you absolutely can’t do it, then it’s better to get it out then not do it at all. And sometimes a letter or note is actually a superior medium to talking because it allows you to express all of your feelings without forgetting what you want to say or running the risk of setting off another argument.

Use humor when appropriate. Some self-deprecating humor can break the tension and cause you both to laugh. I’ve found that drawing little cartoons of me and my mishap can instantly dissipate my wife’s anger. Note that I said, when appropriate. If you cheated on your girlfriend, don’t crack jokes or make cartoons about it. “And see in this panel, that’s me making out with your best friend.”

Be sincere. This is the cardinal rule of apologies. An insincere apology is in some ways worse than no apology at all. The person’s hurt over your offense will merely be compounded by their anger at your hypocrisy. An insincere apology may take the form of saying you’re sorry but saying it in such a way that your lack of contrition is patently manifest. Another form is the famous “I’m sorry you’re sorry” apology. This apology admits no fault but pretends like saying you’re sorry that the person was hurt or is angry is still pretty big of you. Don’t bother; it will make the person want to stab with you a trident.

Take complete responsibility. Never, ever make any excuses while you’re apologizing. They instantly ruin the weight and sincerity of your confession. Don’t use any “buts.” As in “I’m really sorry that happened, but….” A man takes full responsibility for his mistakes.

Express your understanding of why you were wrong and the weight of your mistake. A person wants to know that you fully understand the seriousness of the situation, that you have thought through exactly why what you did was wrong and the full consequences of your actions. Nobody wants to hear an apology from someone who clearly doesn’t know why they’re in the wrong but feels like apologizing is what they’re “supposed” to do.

Offer to make restitution. This is a key part of the apology process. You should almost always offer to try in any way you can to make up for your misdeed. This obviously isn’t always possible. If you break your wife’s 5th generation family heirloom vase, you can’t go to Target and buy a replacement. But if a situation can be fixed and rectified, that you should pledge to do whatever it takes to do so.

Pledge better behavior in the future. Notice that I said pledge and not promise. While some would argue that if you’re really sorry, you’ll never make the same mistake again, our failings as human beings dictates otherwise. I might be truly sorry for losing my temper on someone, but I’m pretty sure that no matter how hard I try, it’s probably going to happen again somewhere down the line. When you promise someone that something is never going to happen again, you’re setting yourself up for a huge rift to develop if it does. The person will be justifiably doubly hurt, because after all, “You promised!” There are of course some things that you can be almost 100% sure you’ll never do again, and if you feel absolutely confident in that, then make a promise. But generally you should simply pledge that you’re going to be working hard on fixing whatever personality or behavioral faults led to your current offense. You can promise that you’re going to be making an effort to change and turn things around.

Prove your contrition with your actions. In the end, words will matter very little if your actions don’t match them. After you’ve apologized, stop dwelling on it. Simply start acting in a way that demonstrates the sincerity of your apology.

Move on. Once you’ve given your sincere apology, don’t apologize again. Having you continually apologize may be what the offended party thinks they want from you and it may make them feel better in the short term. But in the long term, it’s going to ruin the relationship. If you continue to grovel then you’ll always be in the inferior position instead of having the person treat you like an equal. Deep down they won’t be respecting you as a man. Either the person accepts your apology or they don’t. If they do, then there’s no need to keep groveling. If they don’t, then the person doesn’t trust you and the relationship has other problems that need to be fixed.

Blind..

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go

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Yesterday I asked you.. If I went missing, what would you do?

Your answer was "nothing.. because I will always find you in my heart"

And so.. I guess the only place for me is in your heart.. And not by your side..

I once asked you.. Before you got serious with him.. Why not be with me instead.. But you replied you don't wanna lose a friend like me..

A friend.. Maybe I'm just fated to be just her friend..

And it is a fate that I intend to change!

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A few things have clouded my mind since last night.. And I have yet to get a clear view on things.. And then, suddenly I come across this pic...

Instinctively, this picture somehow.. I can't get this picture out of my head..

Baik Baik Sayang

Aku tak ingin kau menangis bersedih
Sudahi air mata darimu
Yang aku ingin arti hadir diriku
Kan menghapus dukamu sayang

Karena bagiku kau kehormatanku
Dengarkan dengarkan aku

Hanya satu pintaku untukmu dan hidupku
Baik baik sayang ada aku untukmu
Hanya satu pintaku di siang dan malammu
Baik baik sayang karna aku untukmu

Semua keinginan akan aku lakukan
Sekuat semampuku sayang
Karena bagiku kau kehormatanku
Dengarkan dengarkan aku

Hanya satu pintaku untukmu dan hidupku
Baik baik sayang ada aku untukmu
Hanya satu pintaku di siang dan malammu
Baik baik sayang karna aku untukmu

Ngee~ Thanks to a certain someone, 070610 will be one of the most memorable day ever... It's simply hard to explain by words.. But to make things short, I have finally said what I need to say since a long time ago, and so did she.. I remembered 3 days ago, when I met her mother for the second time... She said to her friend..

"This is her best guy friend.. He's not his boyfriend yet"

I was speechless when she said that.. And at the same time, I started to wonder.. Yet she said.. Hmm.. Does that mean anything? I guess it's for her to know and for me to find out.. :P

I continued my stroll down memory lane.. I noticed that.. Every time I have nothing to do, I'd give her a text / buzz / call.. Every time I needed someone to talk to, she would be my first choice.. Every time I feel mischievous, she would be my target.. And furthermore, when she said that she needed me, I'd stop whatever I'm doing or finish it as soon as possible, making myself free for the session..

No matter what I do, she'll be there for me, and no matter what she does,

I will always be there for her..

This is my vow, until the end of time...

150 juta

This is one of the sweetest songs that I've known..

Untuk kali keseratus lima puluh juta
Mereka tanyakan engkau soalan yang sama
"Eh kenapa kau masih lagi mahukan dia?"
"Apa kau buta, apa kau pura-pura suka"

Di seratus lima puluh juta kali itu
Di depan semua engkau tarik tangan aku
Yang sedang buat muka kosong tak ambil tahu
Sambil ketawa engkau bilang satu per satu

"Dia mungkin bengis seperti singa"
"Tapi dia nangis tonton cerita Korea"
"Dia mungkin keras bila bersuara"
"Tapi dia jelas, jujur apa adanya"

"Aku lagi kenal dia"

Dah lebih seratus lima puluh juta kali
Aku pesan padamu apa yang bakal jadi
Engkau dan aku ada mungkin tidak serasi
Engkau sangat manis, aku ini pula dawai besi

Di setiap seratus lima puluh jutanya
Aku pun dalam hati semacam tak percaya
Apa kau lihat pada aku jujurkan saja
Terus kau cubit dagu aku, sambil berkata

"Saya mungkin baran tak kira masa"
"Tapi saya tahan kalau yang salah saya"
"Saya mungkin saja keras kepala"
"Tapi saya manja bila kita berdua"

"Saya kenal sayang saya"

Buat apa dicerita
Bahagia kita rasa
Biar tak dipercaya
Peduli orang kata

Baju ronyok tak apa
Asal pakai selesa
Berkilau tak bermakna
Kalau hati tak ada

Aku lebih bengis dari sang naga
Tapi bisa nangis semata demi cinta
Suaraku keras tak berbahasa
Kerna aku rimas gedik mengada-ngada

Aku mudah baran tidak semena
Mana boleh tahan angin cemburu buta
Dan aku sengaja tunjuk keras kepala
Aku punya manja, kau saja boleh rasa

Rahsia kita berdua..